Wednesday, October 27, 2010
Tuesday, October 26, 2010
the future was wide open
this song makes me misty eyed.
you have no idea how often i listened to tom petty in high school-
strange, huh?
don't really know how i got into him-
but his lyrics rang true...the music was good...
it gave me hope.
tom petty was a curious dude,
curiouser and curiouser....
ct>
you have no idea how often i listened to tom petty in high school-
strange, huh?
don't really know how i got into him-
but his lyrics rang true...the music was good...
it gave me hope.
tom petty was a curious dude,
curiouser and curiouser....
ct>
Friday, October 22, 2010
Sunday, October 17, 2010
no way/ no how /do we ever forget what we seen
when i was younger, i never noticed just how many people you lose ...
like instantly.
you wake up and they're gone.
all kinds of people, those who you are close to, and then those you want to be close to. those that have such an impact on your growth, completely unknown by them. little do they know, how they pick you up, inspire you, push you, entertain you or simply, help you relate, help you grown into the person you want to become.
anyone who knows me well, knows that i love music. i love all kinds of music, which pretty much began when i got a job at tower records back in my senior year of high school. oh god, was that long ago..! ha, anyway, i immersed myself in all sorts of records, i'd have long conversations with the jazz buyer, the world buyer, stock cds and cop something because the cover struck a chord. spent my whole paycheck at times on music. music filled my soul-it still does. i can tell you that certain songs define a moment in my life- and there is no way you can tell me that its not the perfect accompaniment. i worked there for four years- throughout college as well. i would take the long walks home at night, after closing the store at midnight, and walk down clark street north to belmont- filling my massive headphones with all kinds of mixes i would burn for myself.
back in those days, i was obsessed with underground hip hop..the backpacker hip hop, they would call it. i would head out to metro on weekends and watch my favorites perform. i remember the time i met eyedea. he was just about one of the most approachable people in the world. its sad to learn, that he has passed away.
its been a long time since i've pulled out my 200 plus cd book of hip hop- these are the days of ipods and shuffles and pandora- and the chance that something like this comes up, man, you have to be looking for it. and thats just the thing, this music was good for my soul, my nineteen year old soul-and how it helped me-in more ways than i can ever explain to you... but how good is this? how great was this album on early winter mornings heading to 8am class at depaul, completely stoned. don't really know exactly how he passed away, but its tragic nonetheless.... ahh, this takes me back - rest in peace, michael. 28 years old.1/2 of eyedea & abilities duo, a pivotal force in rhymesayers fam & underground hip hop, you & your talent will be missed.
like instantly.
you wake up and they're gone.
all kinds of people, those who you are close to, and then those you want to be close to. those that have such an impact on your growth, completely unknown by them. little do they know, how they pick you up, inspire you, push you, entertain you or simply, help you relate, help you grown into the person you want to become.
anyone who knows me well, knows that i love music. i love all kinds of music, which pretty much began when i got a job at tower records back in my senior year of high school. oh god, was that long ago..! ha, anyway, i immersed myself in all sorts of records, i'd have long conversations with the jazz buyer, the world buyer, stock cds and cop something because the cover struck a chord. spent my whole paycheck at times on music. music filled my soul-it still does. i can tell you that certain songs define a moment in my life- and there is no way you can tell me that its not the perfect accompaniment. i worked there for four years- throughout college as well. i would take the long walks home at night, after closing the store at midnight, and walk down clark street north to belmont- filling my massive headphones with all kinds of mixes i would burn for myself.
back in those days, i was obsessed with underground hip hop..the backpacker hip hop, they would call it. i would head out to metro on weekends and watch my favorites perform. i remember the time i met eyedea. he was just about one of the most approachable people in the world. its sad to learn, that he has passed away.
its been a long time since i've pulled out my 200 plus cd book of hip hop- these are the days of ipods and shuffles and pandora- and the chance that something like this comes up, man, you have to be looking for it. and thats just the thing, this music was good for my soul, my nineteen year old soul-and how it helped me-in more ways than i can ever explain to you... but how good is this? how great was this album on early winter mornings heading to 8am class at depaul, completely stoned. don't really know exactly how he passed away, but its tragic nonetheless.... ahh, this takes me back - rest in peace, michael. 28 years old.1/2 of eyedea & abilities duo, a pivotal force in rhymesayers fam & underground hip hop, you & your talent will be missed.
Saturday, October 16, 2010
Thursday, October 14, 2010
let's talk about spaceships
love sick , they say
guess i've been there too.
you feel years of your life slip
and its a cold place when you get to the bottom of the bottle
but are you bouncing?
jumping now-from cloud to sun.
a place that doesn't hurt you anymore.
guess i've been there too.
you feel years of your life slip
and its a cold place when you get to the bottom of the bottle
but are you bouncing?
jumping now-from cloud to sun.
a place that doesn't hurt you anymore.
i'm feelin you
my good friend is getting hitched next weekend. i was in panic mode trying to find a dress, while designing a show with a director who has a very busy schedule, finishing grad school, etc. etc. etc.
enter, winter kate.
i absolutely love this line created by the lovely, nicole richie. goddamn, has she come a long way from her days of tramping it up with paris hilton... (who?) it just shows, how trucker hats were all the rage in 2002-03 and well, now, if you wear one, well, let's just hope you don't go there anymore...
winter kate offers a collection of velvet, chiffon & laced bohemian variety. i love flowy, majestic, bohemian, rock n roll anything...and am very tempted to wear one of her other dresses from the fall collection that i purchased. (see below) however, i seized the opportunity to scoop this hot little ticket as well. and for only $165, this dress is not breakin the bank at all. i will wear this tons, to openings, dates, and some crazy nights out on the town.
nicole modeling her own design! so cute!
ok, so now, my not so economical purchase. & just so you can see the range, and why i am so into this line, i will share with you another dress i purchased by winter kate.
it's burnt out velvet...!probably the coolest type of fabric in the world. the feel of this is butter and i adore the golds and purples that morph colors on each sway. but at $395- its not exactly a steal. however, i was willing to make a sacrifice for something truly unique. so, not really certain at this point which will be the dress for the wedding, but i'll try to post a picture or two of the wedding and my time in chicago next weekend! can't wait!!
now if only i could find a pair of shoes!
enter, winter kate.
i absolutely love this line created by the lovely, nicole richie. goddamn, has she come a long way from her days of tramping it up with paris hilton... (who?) it just shows, how trucker hats were all the rage in 2002-03 and well, now, if you wear one, well, let's just hope you don't go there anymore...
winter kate offers a collection of velvet, chiffon & laced bohemian variety. i love flowy, majestic, bohemian, rock n roll anything...and am very tempted to wear one of her other dresses from the fall collection that i purchased. (see below) however, i seized the opportunity to scoop this hot little ticket as well. and for only $165, this dress is not breakin the bank at all. i will wear this tons, to openings, dates, and some crazy nights out on the town.
nicole modeling her own design! so cute!
ok, so now, my not so economical purchase. & just so you can see the range, and why i am so into this line, i will share with you another dress i purchased by winter kate.
it's burnt out velvet...!probably the coolest type of fabric in the world. the feel of this is butter and i adore the golds and purples that morph colors on each sway. but at $395- its not exactly a steal. however, i was willing to make a sacrifice for something truly unique. so, not really certain at this point which will be the dress for the wedding, but i'll try to post a picture or two of the wedding and my time in chicago next weekend! can't wait!!
now if only i could find a pair of shoes!
Wednesday, October 13, 2010
Tuesday, October 12, 2010
back to this
oh, how i covet thee.... ELEY KISHIMOTO Iphone case for incase!!!!! !!'
gagagagaggaaaaaah droollly mcgooersons
not so much the mac case because i already own the most coolest case for my mac in the whole wide world...
designed by no other than KAWS!! BABY BABAY...for arkitip magazine- oooolala, one of my favorites!
but the iphone case is killer! dare i say , i actually really dig the pink one!
pretty sure this spells
PRESENT!
gagagagaggaaaaaah droollly mcgooersons
not so much the mac case because i already own the most coolest case for my mac in the whole wide world...
designed by no other than KAWS!! BABY BABAY...for arkitip magazine- oooolala, one of my favorites!
but the iphone case is killer! dare i say , i actually really dig the pink one!
pretty sure this spells
PRESENT!
& it is true what you said that i live like a hermit in my own head
i experienced, from what i can gather,
somewhat of an epiphany this afternoon.
i've been carrying some excess baggage around with me.
don't know why-
maybe because i wanted to feel something. maybe i wanted to torture myself; stifle a part of me- almost like a scapegoat, if things didn't work as planned. if i held on to the painful past, i could always find a reason not to blame myself.
i'm sick of feeling like this- of not being in control of my own goddamn life.
if i've learned anything in this lifetime, i know that i've endured too much, worked too hard, experienced love like the movies, dream come true moments, lost the friendship & guidance of many important people in my life, to let this pain-this insignificant anger- this uncontrollable emotion get in the way - make me insecure and doubt all the beauty that this world offers. if i allow myself to wake ,even one more morning ,and not fucking kiss this earth that i should be so grateful that i stand on, i'm scared that these demons that i've carried for too long will take over my ability to make good decisions-decisions that my life & ultimate happiness depend on.
i spoke with a friend today who told me that he's content. that he realized that happiness is a fleeting feeling-but if we strive to be content, we live our life with purpose- fuck, don't let feelings control you, emotions, they come & go - whats the fucking point? i'll constantly be paddling against the current. but if only i can be content- will i win...i live life with such vigor that i never regret a single thing because unfortunately, just as your emotions are, life is fleeting------
so i have to write it here, my very public diary, so all of you, whoever you are, whoever i am, when i walk out of here, may 2011, can look back and i be held to something powerful. pinned down to a decision-and track my progress. remember these three years for everything they were & everything i want them to be, and consider this just another incredibly fortunate experience..an experience that i made happen on my own. i did this. i wanted this. so, i am going to let myself win..ME,!.... I win. I WIN AT THIS. THIS LIFETIME. not you,
ever.
If I could open my arms
And span the length of the isle of Manhattan,
I'd bring it to where you are
Making a lake of the East River and Hudson
If I could open my mouth
Wide enough for a marching band to march out
They would make your name sing
And bend through alleys and bounce off all the buildings.
I wish we could open our eyes
To see in all directions at the same time
Oh what a beautiful view
If you were never aware of what was around you
And it is true what you said
That I live like a hermit in my own head
But when the sun shines again
I'll pull the curtains and blinds to let the light in.
Sorrow drips into your heart through a pinhole
Just like a faucet that leaks and there is comfort in the sound
But while you debate half empty or half full
It slowly rises, your love is gonna drown
Your love is gonna drown
Your love is gonna...
somewhat of an epiphany this afternoon.
i've been carrying some excess baggage around with me.
don't know why-
maybe because i wanted to feel something. maybe i wanted to torture myself; stifle a part of me- almost like a scapegoat, if things didn't work as planned. if i held on to the painful past, i could always find a reason not to blame myself.
i'm sick of feeling like this- of not being in control of my own goddamn life.
if i've learned anything in this lifetime, i know that i've endured too much, worked too hard, experienced love like the movies, dream come true moments, lost the friendship & guidance of many important people in my life, to let this pain-this insignificant anger- this uncontrollable emotion get in the way - make me insecure and doubt all the beauty that this world offers. if i allow myself to wake ,even one more morning ,and not fucking kiss this earth that i should be so grateful that i stand on, i'm scared that these demons that i've carried for too long will take over my ability to make good decisions-decisions that my life & ultimate happiness depend on.
i spoke with a friend today who told me that he's content. that he realized that happiness is a fleeting feeling-but if we strive to be content, we live our life with purpose- fuck, don't let feelings control you, emotions, they come & go - whats the fucking point? i'll constantly be paddling against the current. but if only i can be content- will i win...i live life with such vigor that i never regret a single thing because unfortunately, just as your emotions are, life is fleeting------
so i have to write it here, my very public diary, so all of you, whoever you are, whoever i am, when i walk out of here, may 2011, can look back and i be held to something powerful. pinned down to a decision-and track my progress. remember these three years for everything they were & everything i want them to be, and consider this just another incredibly fortunate experience..an experience that i made happen on my own. i did this. i wanted this. so, i am going to let myself win..ME,!.... I win. I WIN AT THIS. THIS LIFETIME. not you,
ever.
If I could open my arms
And span the length of the isle of Manhattan,
I'd bring it to where you are
Making a lake of the East River and Hudson
If I could open my mouth
Wide enough for a marching band to march out
They would make your name sing
And bend through alleys and bounce off all the buildings.
I wish we could open our eyes
To see in all directions at the same time
Oh what a beautiful view
If you were never aware of what was around you
And it is true what you said
That I live like a hermit in my own head
But when the sun shines again
I'll pull the curtains and blinds to let the light in.
Sorrow drips into your heart through a pinhole
Just like a faucet that leaks and there is comfort in the sound
But while you debate half empty or half full
It slowly rises, your love is gonna drown
Your love is gonna drown
Your love is gonna...
Monday, October 11, 2010
Sunday, October 10, 2010
sleep like a pillow downward
MY BLOODY VALENTINE
Loveless
an insanely good album.
if you don't possess- let me know & i'll pass it your way.
why?
because i care..
and...
i don't want you listening to crap music.. like... i dunno...linkin park, etc. etc. etc.
what i really adore about this album is the through line of a musical seascape of fleshy drums, vocals that replicate morphine and distorted chords-often the lyrics are discernible, and you know thats fine by me...i enjoy the take away.
Saturday, October 9, 2010
day dreams color from shadows
i got a friend
a little guy i see with spoon
he's got so many problems
sweeping under carpets catches up with you, don't it?
and i told you, over coffee,
gonna catch you.
she will catch you, if she can.
she gonna caccccccccccccccccccc-atch you.
a little guy i see with spoon
he's got so many problems
sweeping under carpets catches up with you, don't it?
and i told you, over coffee,
gonna catch you.
she will catch you, if she can.
she gonna caccccccccccccccccccc-atch you.
Friday, October 8, 2010
Thursday, October 7, 2010
Saturday, October 2, 2010
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