we're havin big fun

whoa. its been a while since i've seen you smile. credz:ween
i'm on serious double duty. full time mom + full time job=no free time.
i've found these quiet moments while the house is at rest, to have a little fun for myself.

i always really loved this cut.
for the message, yes.
for the succulent beats, yes.


well, the dirty cloth diapers i was washing seem to be done.
and word on the street is, they don't fold themselves.
##momlife

i'm wide awake, its morning

whats a pregnant lady to do with her weekend time??

TYE DYE baby onesies, of course.




SO OOOO oooo OO o
RAD.

i should go see you in June

i'm in thesis.
hell.





t minus 28 days.

where has all the good music gone?

i can't wait to make mixtapes of my youth for maya....

& she knows
she knows..
she knows....

i listened to the smashing pumpkins during a very beautiful moment of my life.

i imagine my daughter in tall green grass exploring on her own for the first time during her teenage years:

falling in love.
a diary.
keeping secrets.
best friends forever.
her first purse.
feeling pretty with lipstick on.
finding a favorite band.
going to her first concert.
shopping.
jeans with skirts on top.
all the things you encounter with pure, unadulterated innocence.
i'm going to try, in fact, i pledge to preserve this moment in her life as long as i can for her.
no need to grow up so fast...
it all moves too fast later on...
best to enjoy getting there, my sweet little girl.

Now I don’t know where I am; I don’t know where I’ve been; But I know where I want to go

its my birthday today. i usually take some time to reflect over the past years events and my goals for the next one.
i can't believe how important this birthday will be for me. my first birthday as a mother, as a yale graduate, as a woman with complete and utter happiness.
today is my birthday, but i bought my daughter this really awesome gift. i hope she likes it one day when she's old enough.


thats the thing about motherhood. if it had been last year, i would have made some frivolous purchase for myself...and now, i don't want or need a thing at all! i have everything i could ever want.

its a rocking horse by disguincio from italy. it really is the coolest thing i've ever seen! i can't wait to give it to her.

so happy birthday to me. the best one. ever.

strange overtones

i have neglected you, dear, public, very public- blog. well, for good reason. i am busy completing my thesis for graduate school. this song and this post allows me a moment to reflect. i began this blog during my 2nd semester of my 1st year at Yale. i wanted it to be a diary of some sorts to keep friends and family posted on what was going on or what the hell i was thinking all those times i would sequester myself in my studio for weeks on end. i failed to return calls, neglected my long distance boyfriend, my friends, my family back home- ultimately, worrying and pissing off quite a few close people- but, i was focused...and isn't that what they wanted from me?
i made a commitment to do something for myself that i had deeply wanted to do for some time. i always knew that after undergrad i would return for my graduate degree-and when the time came in 2008, i had the fullest intentions to do it right.
somehow i was forgiven, even when at the time, all seemed lost between some relationships, sometimes even those that were the most precious to me. i found myself, i figured out balance for the first time in my life. how to be a better person - how to enjoy life just a little bit more. i am standing now realizing this very, cosmic thing and as my thesis due date rapidly approaches, i can not help to overview my emotions and memories of these past three years upon entering Yale-and what the future holds after.



in may 2011, i will graduate from yale university with my masters degree and while that thrills me more than i can describe, in june 2011 i will be a mother too. josh & i will welcome our first child. so, you see, this really is an amazing three years- i really have grown. i truly have the most precious and incredible life that anyone can ask for and i can't wait to keep going.
here's to 2011 & beyond, to my truest partner & friend, josh, what haven't we conquered....
to my future daughter, i will love you everyday, every hour, every minute- i can not wait to meet you and tell you in person just how amazing you are & how lucky you make me feel to be your mother.


thanks for reading all these years, many of you i know personally and some of you, have found me along the way, which is awesome! look out in 2011 for some new exciting projects i have in the works that will involve children..hey, why not? i will be qualified by then ;)
a new blog
updated costume website
career mobility
& even a big move to a new city for me, josh & the baby love!!!

i see years of pride tomorrow

So can you understand?
Why I want a daughter while I'm still young
I wanna hold her hand
And show her some beauty
Before this damage is done