atmosphere

i'm kinda blue.
i am missing my family.
i wish i was closer to them.
i wish my dad wasn't such a jerk.
i want to be stronger.
josh sent me a mix my first year at yale.
this was track 8 on a two part mix.
i listen to this cd every time i want to feel something...
its really quite melancholy.

farewell

why didn't she realize how beautiful she was?
i'll never understand suicide.

what's inside a girl

after spending the better half of this year in a funk.
shit, i'll tell you later.
this was my serious anthem.



i still find myself asking questions-
but i decided, i'd rather not involve myself with her flared jeans.
its a mad mad world, maybe thats to blame, maybe you are, maybe you should check yourself....
in to a mental institution, crazy, little, girl.

and we'll get to know each other for a second time

two really incredible cuts for this sunday afternoon which happens to be the last day of february 2010.

&.

misery loves company

smell you later, chicago



don't think i'll be back for some time.
you always give me hope
& then leave me hanging.

you thought of everything but one thing you forgot is you're wrong

i think i've been deceived by someone.
i dont know how to react right now
and i am going to try to remain calm about the situation
till i know exactly what the truth is.
i feel so down now.
i could cry.
fuck
blah
going to wrap myself in my bed till i can figure things out.
:(
or better yet, go get a few drinks.

holland, 1945

my sis natalie shared this with me-and i can't get over it.
keyboard cat is sure to cheer anyone up, especially when combined with a little bit of hall & oates.

just what i needed...

bless my soul.

ummm, yah. yah. yah. yah. yah.

will you marry me, mr. eno?

am I conscious or is this my unconscious being

god, this seems so right.
if you are not familiar with the dandy warhols, yet,
well.....................
you should be.




i fancy the idea.

these days i seem to think a lot about the things i forgot to do

how beautiful is this?

floating in a black balloon

Cause it hurts when you discover one's worse and one's better

because i have nothing else to think about.
i often imagine how different my life would be if i had chosen the opposite offer.
you ever think about how different your life might have been?
like if you had done just
ONE
SINGLE
THING
different?
you can't really blame me-i'm a pisces and we daydream half of our day away.
perhaps coffee will perk up my wish-washy mind...too much school stimulation makes me wander further into these alternate endings.
am i making sense?

come in alone

down & out in zombie town :(

nothings gonna touch you in these golden years

another hit off the soundtrack of my youth.



you ever think about that? like what would be on your soundtrack? or , if there was actually a movie made by some totally insane and godly director, who would you cast as yourself? thats a good question. i have a few ideas who i would *like...but maybe they don't look so much like me. or who would direct your movie? overload WHOA. even better, who gets to play your friends or your first love?

i have a younger sister who is still in high school and my parents, esp the old man, get all bent out of shape over it. i was like, dude, you went through this with three girls!?! whats the major malfunc? you know what to expect...

in the meantime,

i can't help but let fall winds take me back to the days, when after school, i would hit the streets with friends and turn the world upside down. those are times you'll never get back. even if you try.

do or die

heading to new york in an hour for my final meeting. drawing...drawing..drawewewiang. losing my mind. what i do best.

this fuckin album is god.

way that he sings

man, having one hell of a week. i'm in work mode for school. i only have a few more days to figure things out and it seems like i'm never going to get it together. i had one of those OUCH moments yesterday in new york while speaking with my teacher.
so shit, what to do, where to go? kinda wish i was anywhere but here right now. its hot as sin in zombie town-we are on a record of 90 plus days and i think i am losing my mind. tuesday was all kinds of messed for me. been thinking a lot about other things, people...my mind is not in the right place. my heart, it aches, tremendously.
i've been on a cinema kick. watching lots of movies. one of my favorites...

i can't believe this shit is from 1989. matt dillion is one dreamy man. something about shaggy, dark hair & those big sunken eyes...wooo. holy hell. gota hand it to gus van sant. slightly hypnotic.

What a drag too many snags

more music of my golden years.

if love is the drug then i want to o.d.

where are all my true 80s new wave playas at?!


may not sound like much at first, but its a classic.
play it a couple of times-the end really rocks out.

jack the world

so this is pretty strange. gwar is one of those bands that i've always kind of loved. there is a soft spot inside little spicoli's heart for metal music theatrical splendor...esp. when the theatrics are downright filthy & gWARRRY. (this is the band that stages projectile menstrual juice on to its audience)..... yum........................... yum!
but aside from that, the whole costumes and history of gwar is just pretty epic. these guys have been going strong for some time-they are embarking on their 25th anniversary tour... and i applaud them. lord knows we have a bunch of utterly craptastic top 40 artists that keep resurfacing. (here's looking at you jason mraz or coldplay or even that irritating band that sings, "don't let go..got the music in you..." UGH, major vomit fest indeed!!!!
so back to the main attraction...gwar !! you know you are set up cus you get to hear these guys rock out and then they are going to pull some shit on you at a concert that is always highly entertaining. its a total win win. Oderus Urungus, lead singer of gwar, was just on fox, which was almost as great as the time i peeped them on jerry springer ( please watch both videos below!) upon further inspection on GWAR ONLINE , apparently he's been appointed the "Official Interplanetary Correspondant" to FOX New's late night show "Red Eye". how do you like dem apples?
three cheers for the scumdogs of the universe.
now enjoy some gwar, my pretties...! and don't say i've never taught you nothin. !!!

imagine my utter delight when i discovered gwar would be on jerry springer!?! i think it went something like..."ughhh, mom, i'm too sick to go to school today....cough cough"


ugh, i found this on youtube while looking for other gwar goodies..wasn't aware of this gwar cameo or that joan had a talk show..WTF? the real question is, red suit skirt plus red nylons, plus red pumps...i think i'm going to sick, joan you crazy bitch and 90s fashions...ugh, why are they coming back again?!

gwar on fox


does anyone remember the beavis & butt-head game?! holy moley, in this game you had to do all this crazy shit in order to gain free access into the gwar concert...something about old video game graphics makes me all nostalgic....


and now,
this is my favorite cut from gwar. in fact, the album this track is on, america must be destroyed, is by far, my favorite gwar album...a +

gota love the end to this video where the piggy gets death by skateboard. scoreeee!

i'm just a vampire for your love

i'd have no problem raiding bolan's closet.

p.s. love this cut.
p.p.s. people suck. (you know who you are)