see you when i do...

1996

just two dope boys:

pathfinding adventures
with
eyes sealed after school
cos' ma never even had a clue

7-eleven pitstops
atl in your system

here comes your man

one of these things first

love to be In the arms of all i'm keeping here with me

i fucking love love love love love love love
this band. wallowing pain i feel deep in my chest
i listen to them every time i want to think of you.
tomorrow..
tomorrow
tomorrow...

afraid it will fall apart

walking by myself down avenues that reek of time to kill

this video is pretty cool, if i say so....

'cause i love him

fascinated

its like real life jem dolls in all their turquoise glory.

go, go, go !

open your eyes to these must I lie?

NOW YOU SAY YOU NEED A FRIEND, BUT WE CAN’T LIVE AGAIN

i'm in the 5 week stretch. 5 more fucking weeks till i am out of this hell hole. (kinda kidding)
its not that bad. but i tell you what is..being away from everything and everyone you love.
living in another city for an extended period of time made me realize who and whats truly important to me.

i realize i am not a psychic. i do not possess any special powers that will help me along the way. i guess thats part of the problem. you have so much self doubt. being in a place by yourself, new friends, new scenery. it gives you nothing but time to reflect.

i'm in this weird stage of my life now and it completely worries me. i have anxiety attacks like a motherfucker.
deep deepp

deeeeeeep deeeep
deeeeeeepppppppppppp
deeeeeee
EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEeeeEEEeeee
eeeeeeep

BREATHS.

let it shine

classic 2000.

fingers of steel

when i was seventeen, i came across a short essay that someone had written and lost. it read....

"And when I help someone
I always help myself by helping"

and went on to form a very persuasive analysis of this quote. i carefully folded the paper and placed it in my forever box when i returned home later that night.

now, some years later, well, a lot of fucking years later, i was reminded of that essay and the quote. i searched for this wonderful, little piece of paper that i intended to keep for the rest of my years...and be reminded of what this person was really trying to say.
what do we do when we help others? we never set out to get a return, or at least, i hope that's not why you are helping people..but in some grand scheme of the universe,when we help others, some how it comes back to help us too. within the act of helping someone else and the gratitude received, you are helped and equally feel good. its like that commercial that spans across a day and watches different people being in situations where they see a person before them helping someone and then in turn they go on to help someone else.

and its taken me many years, but that quote is actually from a goldfinger song...

isn't it crazy how the smallest event in your life can somehow have so much meaning later on...

i was happy in the haze of a drunken hour

that shirt is something else.

papas been smooth since days of under roos

FIFTEEN DAYS, BABY BABAAAY...